city and colour takes over my body

you are so blind. taking one single thought of yours and running with it, and sticking to you're guns no matter what is said or done. once the tables are slightly turned a war is at our hands. sometimes i want to snap, and plague the helpless but i cant help just want to sit you down and smuther you with glory. ive never had such a best friend, ive never thought itd come down to being so hard to live without this one single person. when i was a younger kid, i never thought in a million years id grow such a relationship with anyone. i never thought i needed anybody. but i do. its scary. besides the matter of love, and that whole field, itd just be awkward and no other human can fill that gap of existence even if they tried. such a feeling has dominated almost every other feeling in my body. ive been set to stone, and i have no problem with it. its mindblowing to actually say, and truly mean you would kill for somebody, other then you're family. and for something as little as spite, no matter what the spite is from and built off of, just spite being there and directed towards me, breaks my heart. i could understand if i have done wrong, but if so, i have never and never will leave a mess in you're hands without atleast a good attempt of cleaning it up. year after year, month after month, week after week, day after day, when my head hits the pillow at night, ive never been so sure of something. i wish you could just say the same.